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hello there! uda lama gak ngeblog hehe .
hmm sekarang banyak nih yang mau gue ceritain
pertama sih yak GUE PUTUS haha sama brahma wirapati itu tuh yang ada namanya dibawah postingan ini . padahal baru aja terima kasih yaa sama Allah udah dikasih dia haha yaaa tapi gapapa, kata2 mujarab keluar lagi nih "kalo jodoh gak kemana, kalo gak jodoh yaa kemana mana aja" haha kata-kata ini cukup nyupport gue sih .
hmm pasti nanya kenapa bisa sampe putus deh (pedeee) tapi kayanya kalo diceritain gak etis yaaa . soalnya menyangkut sahabat2 gue juga.
pokoknya yang bisa gue bilang saat ini cuma
gue minta maaf sama sahabat gue isna shalika
gue minta maaf sama mantan gue brahma wirapati rossi
gue minta maaf sama mantannya isna shalika, agung aribowo
hehe gak perlu gue cerita disini kenapanya, cukup kita ber3 aja yang tau dan 1 orang lagi AHMAD BAIHAQI haha (sabar yaa baqii gue curhatin mulu iks) masalahnya begitulah . yang otaknya pinter kaya gue pasti bisa langsung nyambung hahaha .
hmmm gue emang baru putus dari brahma, pas gue pasang status single di fb wuiii banyak amat yang sms yaa haha pada perhatian juga ama gue ye (?) tapi tapi tapiiiiiiii satu pun cowo yang lagi deketin gue sekarang sama sekali gak ada yang ngenaaaa! gak ada yang ngena di hati gue (cieeelaaaah haha)
jujur gue masih sayang sama brahma, pas dia nanya ke gue "lo masih sayang gak sama gue?" gue jawab "gak!" oh migot pasti lo semua kesel deh kenapa gue gak jujur. tapi gue gak jujur ada alesannya cin.
alasan pertama : gue gakmau nyakitin hati dia lagi, gue udah buat salah banyak banget sama dia.
alasan kedua : gue mau dia gak terkekang sama kehadiran gue dihidupnya dia
alasan ketiga : kalo gue ngomong masih sayang, entar gue dikira mainin hatinya dia (padahal sama sekali enggak ya allah)
alasan keempat : agak menye menye sih tapi ini bener dari hati gue, gue mau dia bahagia. abis selama gue pacaran sama gue, kayanya dia gak bisa buat bahagia seutuhnya. gue cuma mau liat lo senyum lagi brahma :)
selesaaaai . itu dia kenapa gue gak jujur kalo masih sayang sama dia. apalagi pas dia nanya "kalo lo liat gue sama cewe lain cemburu gak?" aaaaaargh ini pertanyaan yang paling bikin gue bete deh! tapi gue jawab "gaktau deh (dengan nada enteng -,-)" tapi asal kalian tauuuuuuuu! gue cemburu banget kalo dia lagi ganjen sama cewe lain ya alloooooh sabarkan hati hambaMu ini ya allah iks ;'( nyesek gue kalo liat dia sama cewe lain. alesannya kenapa gue gak jujur yaa kaya diatas tadi . bukan nya mau sok pahlawan atau gimana, kalo lo bisa lebih bahagia sama selain gue, gue rela kok walaupun butuh waktu lama buat nyembuhin luka kaya begini, gue cuma mau lo bahagia brahma, itu aja.
duh, pokoknya gue gakmau sedih sedihan lagi deh, karna gue tau setiap masalah pasti bakalan ada solusinya. jadi gue mau move on aja. gak mau liat kebelakang lagi. liat kebelakang hanya buat pelajarannya aja supaya kedepannya gak salah jalan lagi . udah yaaaa bye smooch!
yaaaa elaaaah chaaaaaa ingat! jangan makan tulang kawan! brrrr ngeri nih gueeeeeee oh mi gooot helep helep
yaa Allah ..
terima kasih udah ngasih chae keluarga yang baik
terima kasih udah ngasihh chae kehidupan yang berkecukupan
terima kasih udah ngasih chae temen-temen yang sayang sama chae
terima kasih udah ngasih chae orang yang sangat ngerti chae, sayang sama chae, perhatian, tapi walaupun nyebelin juga (hehe) chae tetep sayang banget sama dia
makasih ya Allah udah ngasih BRAHMA WIRAPATI ROSSI dihidup chae :')
What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
One of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
hmm hello! mulai darimana ya
ehm udah 2 minggu ini gue sama brahma jujur2an kalo kita berdua tuh emang bener2 lagi saling boring.
lucu gak sih bilang boring langsung didepan orangnnya? hehe bodo ah yang penting kita terbuka satusama lain.
heem gue berusaha buat perasaan di gue bener2 gak ilang sama sekali. gue usahaaaaa banget. masi tetep sms dia, nanyain keadaan dia, nelfon dia. dia? hah boro2. kalo gak di sms juga gak bakal sms. ya ada 1 alasan kenapa gue ga akan ninggalin dia. itu cuma gue dan dia yang tau. dan kita berdua emang gak bisa pisah. tapi semakin kesini kok semakin aneh ya gue? kaya semakin plong gitu. yaa dia udah mayanan deh care dikit. aduh ya Allah jangan sampe deh ini ilang semuanya beneran. gue gamau. gue harus jaga! chae ayo lo bisa jaga perasaan lo ke brahma! semangat2! walaupun lo diginiin sama dia, tapi lo harus tetep sabar ya cha . oiya apalagi ditambah si brahma ganjennya muncul lagii dah ama anak kelas 1 yang baru -__-" hadooh sabar bu sabaar. jangan sampe kejadian kaya dulu keulang aja, kalo keulang mah beeh abis brahma sama gue. haha .
ya Allah sabarkan hati hamba-Mu ini ya Allah.. semoga masalah ini cepet selesai dan kita kembali ke normal! itu aja yang gue mau. NORMAL! amiiin
For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
But why are you making this thing drag on so long
(I wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly game
(silly games)
Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more
I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you in a state
(in a state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more
Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more
oh God this is the hardest part in my life.. what should i do?
God , only You can help me to solve it. i'm tottaly confused . i can't talk this problem to anyone, also him :'(
God, hear my pray.. :'(
aku kangen kita kayak dulu bam ;'(
hey blogs! sparkle emang bestfriend gue deh. disini gue bisa cerita semuanya. thanks sparky! gue mau cerita keadaan akhir akhir ini yang tambah ngeboringin nih! sekarang cowo gue disibukkan sama kegiatan barunya yaitu jadi komandan latihan di ekskur pecinta alam gue.
proud sih. proud banget dia bisa dipercaya sama anak-anak buat jadi komandan tertinggi di pendidikan dasar. artinya dia udah bisa jadi leader yang diperhitungkan hehe. bagus buat mimpin gue nanti yaa (lho?)
ehm.. sebenernya gue gak masalah ya sama kesibukkan dia buat jadi komandan itu, tapi sparky, dia jadi sibuk bangetngetnget . there's no time for me anymore :( gue mau ngomong sama dia tapi, apa gak egois kalo gue ngomong kaya gini ke dia? seenggaknya sekarang dia bener-bener lagi nikmatin jabatan barunya itu dan belajar buat lebih baik ngurus organisasi.
gue harusnya support dia kan? iya dong . gue udah support dia kok. walaupun sekarang perbandingan ketemu temen-temennya daripada gue 3:1 yaa gapapa deh.
yang penting kan masih bisa ketemu. asal penyakit lama jangan kambuh lagi aja. kalo kambuh lagi.. gatau deh hubungan kita bisa diterusin apa enggak.
kita udah janji kelingking lhoo (hehe)
you know? its hard to tell him the truth about my feelin, sekalipun ke temen gue. gue bingung mau cerita kesiapa.
yaa emang sih brahma pernah bilang, kalo gue gak pernah mau cerita tentang masalah2 gue, gue anggep dia apaan? oke fine, gue coba cerita tuh masalah kegedekan gue sama temen2 gue yang seenaknya (adalah..) eh pas gue udah cerita, si brahma malah ketawa-ketawa aje. gedeg gak tuh lo? seengaknya kasih saran kek, kasih pengrtian kek, apa kek. hmm makanya gue jadi males cerita masalah gue kesiapapun.
toh orang ngeliat gue diluar seneng2 aja kan hehe.
tapi kalo udah boring banget dan gak kuat nahan masalah sendiri, biasanya tiba-tiba aer mata udah ngalir aja. tuh tuh kan sekarang aja keluar ;(
sahabat. kangen gue sama kata yang satu itu.
pacar. kalo gue cerita malah diketawain :(
gue cerita sama allah dan sparkle aja :')
